Wasting pts to ask, please answer?

ive answered some of your questions while stating that i dont want to be a boy but i dont want to be a girl neither, im a girl however, i like girls but i think im falling more to the FtM but i still really like the soft butch and fem girls. i dress more on the metroual guy side..anyways im starting to really question now, what is that? i wouldnt specify as genderqueer, because im aware that i dont want to be either..or is it? dude i hope i didnt confuse anyone but myself. thanks